We gotta replace the empty space left by the removal of addictive chemicals or we might relapse.
The day we get a divorce from the drugs and alcohol that almost killed us, many of us have a nagging fear that is expressed in these questions:
Now what am I going to do with my time?
What will replace the love that I had for drugs and alcohol?
Drugs were my lover and my best friend and I depended on them to survive the pain that came my way.
When I did drugs, I no longer felt like a victim, I thought that I was winning and taking control of my life, at least at the beginning of my drug use. All of this changed as I became a slave to drugs and my life spun out of control and I descended into insanity. My best friend had changed into my number one enemy. I was lost, angry and afraid of myself and the world.
My whole identity was wrapped up in doing drugs, finding drugs, or dealing drugs, so who am I to become now?
Am I going to be bored out of my mind and how can I find sober friends that I can like and get close to? Will I am be consumed by the loneliness and isolation that drugs took away?
What can I do for fun in sobriety? Drugs were my full-time hobby and my first love, what can compete with that?
How do I deal with my grief and anger over losing my best friend – drugs and alcohol?
How am I going to deal with the pain that has accumulated over so many addicted years? Drugs were my solution to life, my coping mechanism, for every life difficulty like anger, fear, resentment, disappointment, envy, or broken relationships. I Drugs were how I managed every life crisis that I ever had.
I am afraid that I am going to feel naked or emotionally exposed without my best friend– drugs and alcohol.
Drug use and the addiction that comes with it, is a deeply ingrained habit that does not want to be replaced, but we must replace it or we die.
How are you going to replace your best friend?
Tags: Leaving my addiction