Here is some great wisdom from the AA “Twenty Four Hours A Day” meditation book:
“Molding your life means cutting and shaping your material into something good, something that can express the spiritual. All material things are the clay out of which we mold something spiritual. You must first recognize the selfishness in your desire and motives, actions and words, then mold that selfishness until it is sublimated into a spiritual weapon for good. As the work of molding proceeds, you see more and more clearly what must be done to mold your life into something better.”
“Your life has been given to you mainly for the purpose of training your soul. This life we live is not so much for the body as for the soul. We often choose the way of life that best suits the body, not the way that best suits the soul. God wants you to choose what suits the soul as well as the body. Accept this belief and a wonderful molding of character is the result. Reject it and God’s purpose for your life is frustrated, and your spiritual progress is delayed. Your soul is being trained by the good you choose. Thus the purpose of your life is being accomplished.”
There were long days when I looked back over my 28 years of addiction, my one year of homelessness and countless days of addictive torture, and wondered to myself, “What is the purpose of all of this suffering?” Today, I know that the purpose of all of those years of fear, loneliness, hate, rage, self-destruction, confusion, mania and depression was to bring my soul to the point where I would submit and surrender my life to God, so that He could work miracles in my life and show me how to help others. Some people can just easily submit and surrender their lives to God, but not me. I had intellectual pride, stubbornness and a selfishness that made me cold to the feelings of others. All of the drugs and alcohol that I consumed over the years served to magnify my own character defects and turn me into an addict out of control and bent on self-destruction. There could be no room for spiritual progress while there was a war raging in my heart. There was an epic “tug-o-war” being fought in my soul, and I was losing the battle day by day.
How could anything good come from my addictive insanity? In His great Mercy and Love, Jesus has given me the beautiful gift of sobriety and a new life with new hope and opportunities to help others. By the Grace of God, today I have 16 years of sobriety and as I look back at the hell I went through, I now understand that it was all a spiritual journey designed for my ultimate good. I probably could have gotten sober at any of the 13 treatment centers that I went to, but I was not yet ready to surrender, and I was battling not only addiction, but also manic depression. When I graduated from high school, I never dreamed that my life would be so hard, so frieghtening and that I would become so lost.
I am alive today to encourage you and to show you how Jesus loved me and rescued me from certain addictive death. I am here to tell you that if I can get sober, anyone can get sober!
The good news is that I am now helping other addicts to achieve freedom from chemicals and to enjoy a new life of peace and sobriety. Today, I am helping other addicts by writing blogs, publishing my book and giving addicts the gift of hope and encouragement. If I can recover, anyone can recover. I know, because I have been to Hell and back, and I know the power of Jesus who saved me.
I invite you to read my book. The title of my published book is: “Saved By The Prince Of Peace—Dungeon To Sky.”
Please visit my website: http://www.dungeontosky.com
My Facebook page for the book is: https://www.facebook.com/dungeontosky
Peace, Love and Hope to you!