During the 28 years that I was addicted to the chemicals, marijuana, alcohol and crack cocaine, I could not see into the future to experience the Grace that God had planned for me once I got sober. Jesus has been calling me all of my life, but it was not until I surrendered, that our relationship started.
Jesus has given me the precious gift of 18 years sober and my life has never been the same since I surrendered my life to Jesus and truly reached out for help with my disease of addiction.
At the end of my journey and nightmare of addiction, I was sleeping in a utility closet in an alley behind my favorite bar, because I would rather spend my money on alcohol, pot and cocaine than spend it on rent. I was destroyed mentally, emotionally, spiritually and physically, and I had five near-death experiences. I had pancreatitis and I had contracted Hepatitis C from sharing needles.
I had many losses and here are just a few:
- I lost my marriage.
- I lost my career.
- I became homeless.
- I had five near-death experiences.
- I lost my dreams.
- I lost all the important relationships with family and friends.
- I lost my dog.
- I lost my drive and ambition.
- I lost my self-confidence and my self-respect.
- I lost my connection to God.
- I violated my values and became a thief and a predator.
- I was arrested 15 times, spent ten months in jail, and was in 13 treatment centers.
- I lost the love inside my soul, and was filled with anger, rage, fear, desperation, terror and hopelessness.
- I lost my faith and my trust in people and in myself.
Today, I understand that Jesus allowed me to experience the pain and horror of addiction, so that one day, I could share my love, experience, hope and faith with other suffering addicts. I have been called to make a difference in people’s lives. I am a public speaker to high schools and treatment centers and I am working to expand my reach.
I have published a book about my addiction and recovery called, “Saved By The Prince Of Peace—Dungeon To Sky.”
My website is: dungeontosky.com
In my experience, addiction is the most urgent and serious threat to the health of our nation and we must fight it.
Now I understand what Jesus was talking about when He said,
“And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love Him, to enable them to fulfill the purpose for which they are called”. (Romans 8:28)
If there was just one spiritual song that perfectly describes my life, it is “Amazing Grace”:
Amazing grace! How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me.
I once was lost, but now am found,
Was blind, but now I see.
‘Twas grace that taught my heart to fear,
And grace my fears relieved.
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed.
Through many dangers, toils and snares
I have already come;
‘Tis grace hath brought me safe thus far
And grace will lead me home.
The Lord has promised good to me
His word my hope secures;
He will my shield and portion be,
As long as life endures.
Yea, when this flesh and heart shall fail,
and mortal life shall cease,
I shall possess within the veil,
A life of joy and peace.
When we’ve been there ten thousand years
Bright shining as the sun,
We’ve no less days to sing God’s praise
Than when we first begun.
If I can get sober by the power of Jesus Christ, then anyone can get sober!
Peace and blessings to you.